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 "title": "XV",
 "poet": "Fernando Pessoa",
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    "text": "Like a bad suitor desperate and trembling",
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   {
    "text": "From the mixed sense of being not loved and loving,",
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   {
    "text": "Who with feared longing half would know, dissembling",
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   {
    "text": "With what he’d wish proved what he fears soon proving,",
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   {
    "text": "I look with inner eyes afraid to look,",
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   {
    "text": "Yet perplexed into looking, at the worth",
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   {
    "text": "This verse may have and wonder, of my book,",
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   {
    "text": "To what thoughts shall’t in alien hearts give birth.",
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    "text": "But, as he who doth love, and, loving, hopes,",
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    "text": "Yet, hoping, fears, fears to put proof to proof,",
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    "text": "And in his mind for possible proofs gropes,",
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    "text": "Delaying the true proof, lest the real thing scoff,",
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   {
    "text": "I daily live, i’th’ fame I dream to see,",
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    "text": "But by my thought of others’ thought of me.",
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